Two blog posts in one day – WINNING!!
About a month ago, I was given a task which seemed simple enough. A task (as I was told) would improve my ability to be more present.
I worry. I worry about everything. At least that’s what I used to tell myself when I was younger. These days it is classified as anxiety. And it can be debilitating. I know, I’ve been there. The sad thing is, most of my “worries” were about future events. Or I replayed past events over and over.
I wasn’t living in the here, the now.
So a month ago I was asked to do this: say “I accept where I am right now” multiple times per day. Actually, I was also asked to say “I am a spiritual being having a human experience” but that’s a slightly different story. I might come back to that if there’s time.
To be honest, when I was given these exercises I really didn’t see how these words would change anything. But I was willing to try. I had read enough about positive affirmations yet hadn’t played around with them much. It just didn’t sit comfortably with me. Let alone mirror work! I digress…
Every time I was in the car, I repeated these affirmations. While I was doing the dishes, I repeated them. At any moment of each day where I remembered, I repeated them.
The experiment lasted 2 weeks. At the end of that time I went back to report the changes. I had ceased worrying about both the past and the future. Completely! I think I even had a yucky argument with my partner during that time and didn’t dwell on it all day long (as I do…did!)
I was starting to take in the moments life presented to me, paying attention to world and it’s wonder around me. Even a simple drive to school was more vibrant and alive, yet relaxing at the same time.
I became more patient. I took the time to listen more carefully to those around me. I was more at peace within myself.
What also happened was I began to want to say more positive affirmations to myself. And so I did. Any random wonderful words that would come to mind when I said “I am”, I would say. I am healthy, happy, wealthy, successful etc. I gathered myself quite a little list of positive words to tell myself I was.
Then it increased to things like I am at peace with all I interact with, I am connected to Spirit, I am confident in all I do etc.
And I can feel it raising my vibration. In fact, I can feel it rising again now just writing and re reading this blog!
So just as those simple words “I accept where I am right now” helped me to become more present, so will all the other affirmations I am saying to myself – at least twice per day. I understand now I don’t have to believe them straight away, that will come. And as I come to believe, then the manifesting will really begin.
On a side note, the second affirmation I mentioned earlier “I am a spiritual being having a human experience”…well I am still working on this. I know I have major blockages around this topic, always seeking evidence or proof of it. I have rejected the possibility since I was a young girl so I understand it will take me more than a few weeks to change this view.
However I do believe it’s possible and that’s a pretty good place to start.
Love and light